Thinking about....
There are days when I just can't concentrate and I think today was one of those days. I find my mind wandering off into the sky, or wandering off to my art or photography or of course wandering off to the place that all teenage boys minds wander off too: someones pants. ;)
I was doing a photoshoot today with Starshine, and she admitted to me that she had liked me for some time when we were younger, and I was fairly startled. I lowered my camera, and she stopped posing for me, and I asked her "why?", baffled. I could tell she was nervous, grinning and staring at the ground with embarrased eyes, but she said "there was an air about you. I could feel the way you feel all the time. I felt...connected." and I suppose I knew what she meant. She's a psychic, and her powers to sense aura are phenominal. She tucked her hair back behind her ear and it occured to me, rather suddenly and guiltily, the reason why she had never told me before: she was my shoulder to lean on. I had been complaining about Lance and Gloria and every boy or girl I had ever liked to her and she didn't want to embarras herself. I felt so bad. So bad, in fact, I had to call off the photoshoot and go sit by myself out in the school yard.
I tried to talk about it with Lance, but he got irrittated and started asking me seperate questions, and now I feel so bad. She hadn't dated for years, was it because she liked me and was waiting for something to happen? She's a beautiful, smart, tree-hugger of a person, and I refuse to believe that no one asked her out in that period of time. What am I supposed to think?
Eh??
--Johnny
P.S Lance is cute. <3
I was doing a photoshoot today with Starshine, and she admitted to me that she had liked me for some time when we were younger, and I was fairly startled. I lowered my camera, and she stopped posing for me, and I asked her "why?", baffled. I could tell she was nervous, grinning and staring at the ground with embarrased eyes, but she said "there was an air about you. I could feel the way you feel all the time. I felt...connected." and I suppose I knew what she meant. She's a psychic, and her powers to sense aura are phenominal. She tucked her hair back behind her ear and it occured to me, rather suddenly and guiltily, the reason why she had never told me before: she was my shoulder to lean on. I had been complaining about Lance and Gloria and every boy or girl I had ever liked to her and she didn't want to embarras herself. I felt so bad. So bad, in fact, I had to call off the photoshoot and go sit by myself out in the school yard.
I tried to talk about it with Lance, but he got irrittated and started asking me seperate questions, and now I feel so bad. She hadn't dated for years, was it because she liked me and was waiting for something to happen? She's a beautiful, smart, tree-hugger of a person, and I refuse to believe that no one asked her out in that period of time. What am I supposed to think?
Eh??
--Johnny
P.S Lance is cute. <3
posted by Mr. Death at 10:43 p.m.
2 Comments:
think, it's cool that she liked me, but why did she take so long to say it?
Whatever her reasons were, it wasn't your fault, so dont make it your fault. pretty cool that you made someone feel "connected" though ::grins::
She's a very strange and spiritual person. :p I just think she should have said something or got a date or something.
I think she's starting to see someone now. :)
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