On the Birds and the Bees...
This has always been an awkward subject for me, sex. I hate discussing it with other people, I even feel guilty thinking about it. I can't watch much porn, I can't handle videos or pictures of people having sex and the whole act itself scares the hell out of me. I'm not sure if its my mom's radical feminism, sexual assault attempts, maybe even my sexuality. But logically, none of that had any effect on my sexuality, so I'm not sure why it should effect my wantings to have sex either.
I talked to Lance about this, who, like a typical teenage boy, thought I was crazy. After he stopped taunting me and pretending to "turn me on", he said that I should talk to a psyciatrist, maybe and that he'd wait as long as I had to.
Am I insane or something or is this random insecurity?
I talked to Lance about this, who, like a typical teenage boy, thought I was crazy. After he stopped taunting me and pretending to "turn me on", he said that I should talk to a psyciatrist, maybe and that he'd wait as long as I had to.
Am I insane or something or is this random insecurity?
posted by Mr. Death at 5:33 p.m.
5 Comments:
not quite understanding....you dont want to have sex, or you're unconfortable about the fact of it?
of course you know that all those life things you mentioned could very well be the cause of any sexual problems you are going thru, but with a willing, thoughful, patient, understanding partner (lot to ask sometimes) and a willingness on your part to overcome it.....things can be good.....really....
Off Topic***
Happy Halloween.
Okay...clarity: I want to have sex, yeah, I have the same needs as kids my age, but I'm not as obvious about it, I guess.
I just feel scared, inadequete, nervous, underqualified, violated about it. Whatever you want to call it.
Lance said he'll wait as long as I will, but I feel bad for making him wait for something he's wanted since he was 13. He says its alright, and I believe him, but I don't want to turn him on, or sexually frustrate him.
:p
Deb, Thanks!!! I love Hallowee'en, we had a blast!
maybe you are just not ready?
Argh, too late. But I guess I wasn't until it happened.
Thanks
JV
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