Uhhhhh....
!sick sick sick sick sick!
There are times when I decide that I can't live through another 24th...the one hope is that when I go to bed on the 23rd, I sleep until the 25th...or maybe die.
It makes me sick to think that my mother has been gone for 4 years, and most of me expects her to walk through the door and take me home, smiling and telling me about all the people she met wherever she was.
It makes me sick to think that the man who stabbed her to death is probably still out there, living in my city, walking along the same streets I do, and laughing about how he got away with murder.
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Lance and I sat on the roof tonight and threw all of the leaves off and watched them fall to the ground, laughing. It was weird, but a fun way to clean the eavesthrough. We talked about sex, again, along the same lines as the last conversation and then we talked about my mom...it was basically what the top bit says but in more detail and interuppted by me hitting something or him giggling.
He was wearing his frilly...petticoat...thinger (he confessed to his mom yesterday he was a crossdresser...Aw-Kward!) and no shoes. His hair is blue now, and mine green.
We talked about Starshine and her new beau (more on this later), Kennan, and Allen.
About Allen, I worry. He hasn't been around, not since him and Ellin split up...
And Lori and Ian are still married, I owe Lance 20$.
Also, my porn name is Johnny Hardcore. ;)
-JV
There are times when I decide that I can't live through another 24th...the one hope is that when I go to bed on the 23rd, I sleep until the 25th...or maybe die.
It makes me sick to think that my mother has been gone for 4 years, and most of me expects her to walk through the door and take me home, smiling and telling me about all the people she met wherever she was.
It makes me sick to think that the man who stabbed her to death is probably still out there, living in my city, walking along the same streets I do, and laughing about how he got away with murder.
--
Lance and I sat on the roof tonight and threw all of the leaves off and watched them fall to the ground, laughing. It was weird, but a fun way to clean the eavesthrough. We talked about sex, again, along the same lines as the last conversation and then we talked about my mom...it was basically what the top bit says but in more detail and interuppted by me hitting something or him giggling.
He was wearing his frilly...petticoat...thinger (he confessed to his mom yesterday he was a crossdresser...Aw-Kward!) and no shoes. His hair is blue now, and mine green.
We talked about Starshine and her new beau (more on this later), Kennan, and Allen.
About Allen, I worry. He hasn't been around, not since him and Ellin split up...
And Lori and Ian are still married, I owe Lance 20$.
Also, my porn name is Johnny Hardcore. ;)
-JV
posted by Mr. Death at 6:28 p.m.
3 Comments:
Hahah Lance got stuck cleaning up the mess, doesnt that just suck lance? Hey I'm a mom, so I know what it feels like more often than not.
Anyway Mr. Hardcore....so sorry I've been incog, just been in a verrrry depressed mood, couldn't bring myself to blog all that shit. but i missed you if that makes a dif? I did put up a new post, btw.
i know how u feel about your mom. my sis denise was killed a week after xmas 8 yrs ago.....i'll probably blog about it ccause its what really screws me up this time of year.....but all in all I do hope you feel better this year, and if not, know that I'm here...Lance is here...your ther friends....
also, if i never said it before, you can call me anytime, just email me for the number, eh?
and next time, help lance [ick up the leaves, lol
I didn't even know. lol.
Thanks. <3
JV
Wow, Dude...
I'm so sorry that you had someone you love be taken from you in such a harsh way. There are some evil, sick people out there.
Since I read your more recent posts first, I know that you and Lance are now intimate, so maybe you can pay off the $20 you owe him that way! ;-)
Apologies--have been celibate for 7 years now and always have sex on the brain. Though it would have to be with the right guy or I'll stick with Senor Wences (aka Old Righty) because I am a die hard old fashioned romantic and casual sex is NOT worth it!
Peace,
The Cheesy 1
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